Lord, is it I?

Matthew 26:21-22 - "And as they did eat, he said, Verily I say unto you, that one of you shall betray me. They were exceedingly sorrowful, and each of them began to say to Him, ‘Lord, is it I?’ "

You know as I come to these verses one can only wonder to what degree of betrayal each disciple must have already struggled with in his own heart or imagined in his own mind as each of them were made exceedingly sorrowful and maybe even began to doubt their commitment to the Lord and yet it is quite clear that each of them knew that this hideous nature lay within them all as is evident by their own confession "Lord, is it I?". Oh how true are His Words in Jeremiah 17:9 "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?" Yes, even the disciples didn't know their own hearts, they were so deceived by it that they didn't even know if they would be the one who would betray the Lord. The truth that there is a potential for betrayal at some level that lays within our own hearts must be fully exposed so that we can clearly see this sin for what it is and destroy it before it destroys us. In the famous words of John Owen "be killing sin, or it will be killing you." We should always be on guard against the sin of betraying our Lord in word, deed, or thought and don't ever hesitate to ask the question Lord, is it I?